Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Chugging Along

I have a friend that writes the most beautiful posts on her blog. When I read them, I feel clean and alive. I am inspired to use my senses, to experience everyday beauty, to believe in the best and to trust.

And soon enough I'm torn away. Plugged back in. Again and again, producing to specifications. Reporting my utilization.

I keep waiting for things to change so I may be alive. tomorrow i tell myself..maybe in a month..definitely once I quit this job..perhaps after I've found my calling.

And then I realized..I've started to be believe i am the machine they want me to be.

Its not my circumstances that need to change, just my stances.